Are You Faithful

  I can admit that a few weeks ago my faith was dwindling and I cried out to GOD, all I had left was mustard seed sized faith. I was in trouble and I knew it. (Hebrews 11:6) Trust and believe that your faith will be tested throughout life. When you were a teen and thought you were in love, one person would say "I love you" and the other would respond "prove it." Well when we say we have faith and trust GOD, HE will try it and prove it. Why because many honor HIM with their lips and not with their hearts. Doesn't HE know who is genuine or not? Of course HE does HE is all knowing but HE wants us to know our faith and trust is really in HIM. I can't speak for everyone but I know there were times when I had in my mind am I doing this Christian thing right? Am I in alignment with GOD? Who am I fooling really? (Hebrews 11:17, James 1:3, 1 Peter 1:7, 2 Corinthians 7:8-11, Psalm 139:23)
 I was in such a dry place, that I didn't want to have faith for the breakthrough, the blessings etc we are so often told to fight for; my faith was shot I was simply afraid to have faith for somethings. How can this happen you may ask, well have you ever believed GOD for something and it didn't happen or hasn't happened yet? The disappointment felt stirs up more and more doubt than one can imagine if not taken cared of immediately. (2 Corinthians 10:5, Philippians 4:8). I grew desperate for more of GOD, my hunger and thirst grew for HIM and HIS Word; it's still growing. I started only playing worship music and going into prayer more often. I just wanted to be close to GOD, yes I wanted the promises as well but I wanted to be closer to GOD. My desire was and still is to show GOD I have faith in You regardless of my circumstances, I wanted to become a woman after GODs heart. My greatest prayer was and will be "Father GOD please don't let me get weary in well doing and don't let me turn from you!" The decrease in my faith was due to the lack of seeing certain things promised to me by GOD. But the internal question for me was would I love and believe GOD regardless of if certain things never happened for me. This journey had to happen.
I woke up the other morning thanking GOD that I was afflicted (Psalm 119:71) and counting it all joy (James 1). I asked GOD to increase my faith and that is what HE has been doing; I was given a Word by GOD for many things in this life and they require greater faith and HE is producing it in me. During the process it may not feel good but the benefits from it are marvelous. (Hebrews 12:11)

*Music: "Open My Heart"-Yolanda Adams, "I will taste"- Darrel  Walls, "He's Able"- Darrel Walls
"Anchored"- Hillsong Worship, "Miracles"- Jesus Culture, "You Won't Relent"- Jesus Culture
*Be Blessed